Happily Single

From the age of 16 to the age of 26 I was never single for more than a few weeks. Most of my relationships lasted more than a year thus earning me the title of serial monogamist. I never dated, I never played the field. I just went from one long term relationship to the next.

I was the ideal girlfriend as long as you had no expectations from me. The minute my man of the moment began to talk about living together, getting engaged, getting married or having children I would subconsciencely began to plan my escape. That was my M.O. Of course, I would never have dreamed of looking anyone in the eye and telling them of my fears. No, that would have made sense. Usually, I just kept smiling and denying that anything was wrong.

I have been single since I had Mr. Little Man and, you know what, I like being single. No, actually, I love being single. I didn't realize how much of myself I had tucked away and its nice to rediscover what I am all about.

I consciencely took a break from dating and I haven't missed it at all. I think it will be a couple more years before I am ready to jump into the dating pool because I still have some things I want to do on my own.

The funniest thing about all of this is that the things that I was lacking (understanding, patience, generosity, affection, selflessness, supportiveness, balanced hormones, etc.) that made it impossible for me to committ, I now have. Also, I think committment got a little less scary when I saw how much I loved my child. Seriously, you don't get any more committed than to your child. And you learn that relationships can, in fact, overcome hardships. That was something I never understood. EVERYTHING can be worked out. EVERYTHING.


What I am reading: The Economist. I have a subscription. Also, I don't think I've mentioned it here yet, but I am going to grad school part time starting in the fall (can you say MA in Economics?). The whole thing should only take me about 10 years.
What I am listening to: The iPod is on shuffle so there is no telling what will pop up next.