Feelin' Love

(And not the same kind as that Paula Cole song).

I've been a little depressed the last couple of days because of my birthday. Getting old in no way upsets me; its just the realization that a certain part of my life is over. Germany is 8 hours ahead of Eastern Time and my grandfather was not a patient man so he would wait as long as he could and then call you sometime around 5 am to wake you up and wish you Happy Birthday.

Its wierd because I came to look forward to that phone call and now, for the first time in my life it won't be happening. It is a little sad and really just hits home how much I miss my grandfather. Apparently my friends pay attention because it's 5 am and thus far I have received:

3 text messages (which is amazing because I just figured out how to text. I know.)
4 e-cards (I have no idea how to send these either)
1 phone call

So now I have gone from feeling a little sad to feeling blessed that I have alot of great people in my life. Sometimes it takes things like this to remind you that if you are constantly looking back, you can't look forward.

What I am Reading: I have not finished The Black Dahlia. My family has recently discovered that CT and his girlfriend are going to have a baby, so we have been on the phone nonstop. And in "I have to make everything about myself" news: having a child out of wedlock was old hat when I did it but now I can't help but feel like CT is trying to muscle in on my "black sheep" territory.
What I am listening to: Fall Out Boy. Those guys have some snappy song titles. Mr. Little Man and I jump and dance on the bed to this CD every morning. Its our before school ritual and we have fun with it.